Him
They always say you will find someone when you least expect it. I guess they were right. I made it a point to stay single for a year, but like a lot of my other goals, that goal is now shattered.
I am not in the least bit complaining. I adore him. It almost seems to good to be true and I hope I’m wrong. I’m letting my walls down. I’m very vulnerable and it scares me. I can’t help it though, he’s incredible. I’ve done things with him I said I’d never do. Somehow he makes me break all my rules. Maybe he came at the perfect time in my life. I’m more grown up, and have my priorities. He just so happens to be one of them. When were not together he’s all that’s on my mind.
I have technically known him for 2 months even though we never said more then 2 things to each other. “would you like a bag” and “would you like a receipt” doesn’t really suffice as a conversation. Every time I saw him I couldn’t look him in the eyes. Beautiful boys make me nervous. He thought I wanted nothing to do with him, because I was so shy. I just couldn’t bring myself to say anything else. The day I finally said something it was a random act of amazingness.
I went to the gym and when I got out I was thirsty, so I stopped at walgreens. I looked at the time and it was almost 10. I remembered he worked nights. So I ripped a piece of paper off and wrote my name and number on it just incase he was working. I walked in and there he was. My heart fell through the floor knowing I had to do it. I had to grow some and actually go through with it. It was now or never. Since my cousin *cough cough* never had balls to do it for me. I went to the drinks got my Arizona ice tea and went to check out. No one was in line, thank god. If there was I doubt I would have done it. He asked me if I wanted a bag I said yes then he asked if I wanted a receipt and I said yes. He handed it to me and I reached in my pocket and gave him the note. I just turned and walked away. I didn’t look back. I didn’t think he would actually text me and I didn’t get my hopes up. I get home sit down and get a text from a number that said “:))” I was ecstatic!!!!
Here we are barley 2 weeks later and I’m already falling. Please let this not be a huge mistake. If this ends it will be my first heart break I know that for sure.
